Thursday, October 18, 2007

Why oh Why?

I know not all women do this but some do. I am one of them and I for the life of me can't come up with a reasonable explanation as to why I do it. Why do I compare myself to other women. And I am not talking about famous women. Regular women I see. I just realized I did it this morning at the gym. I was at the gym this morning getting ready when I noticed another lady in there. I had not seen her before. She said she was on the treadmill but I don't remember seeing her on a treadmill. She had on a pair of black tight fitting pants. Not so tight it's nasty but they fit her good. It made her butt look round. Not too big but not small. Why did I think man I wish I had a butt like that. I don't really have a butt. I mean not one that fits good in pants. Then again I don't have large breasts and wish they were some what larger. So when I see women with larger breast I again compare myself. Or if I see someone with a cute hair cut I think man I wish my hair looked like that. I feel like I should not have this issue. I should be just fine with who I am and the way I look yet I always compare myself to others. Why am I still insecure. I was insecure in high school when I could not get a boyfriend but now that I am happily married why am I insecure? I am going to have to pray about this. I don't like it and I don't want to keep comparing myself to others. What about you do you compare yourself to others?