Its getting harder and harder to get up and come to work. I am not sick for those that don't know me. I just know deep down in the pit of my stomach GOD has more from me than working at this job. Don't get me wrong this is not a bad place to work and I am thankful for my job. BUT I know this is not what I am suppose to do for the rest of my life. Its so hard to know you are going in a different direction but don't know how you will get to your destination or when you will get there. Wondering if you have missed your opportunity, praying if you have that GOD gives you another one. Wanting so desperately a small confirmation that I am not crazy, that GOD is still with me and what I feel is not just my feelings but its GOD talking and guiding me. That one day my husband and I will own our own business. Wanting to know that I am seeing GOD's future for us and not us wanting GOD to see the future we want. All I can do is wait and believe. TRUST GOD. Be patient. Its so hard to know the end without knowing how or when you will get there.

We found out yesterday that we will only get $8,200 out of our house if we sell it. If we try to sell it ourselves we will get $12000 but that seems a little scary. We filled bankrutptcy about a year and a half ago. That is really hurting us when we apply for loans.

Lord I don't know what is going to happen but I trust in you!

Here I go again. I thought I was going to do much better and blog more but I'm not off to a good start.

Well I need everyone's prayer. That is my husband and I do. We have always felt we wanted to own our very own business. We are starting in that process. We have prayed about it and feel like we are headed in the right direction. As most people know it takes money to make money. Thats where our problem lies. We have a small savings account and usually to start a business it takes 20-30% down. For a $100,000 thats $20,000 or $30,000. Thats the price of a business that we could run and not have to work anywhere else. So we have made the decision to sell our house. We are hoping to get at least $15,000 out of it. But on paper it doesn't look possible. Thats where prayer comes in. If we don't get that much it would not even be worth it to sell our house. Please remember us in your prayers that the Lords will be done in our business opportunity.

Thanks and GOD Bless
Chandra

I am ashamed of myself. It has been way too long since I blogged. I wasn't sure anyone was even reading until Amy left a message.

I have been reading different "Christian" blogs. I was amazed to here some of the people talk about some of the churches they have been to tell you that if you have faith you will be healed or get what ever it is you prayed for, if you don't have faith you won't.
I don't believe that. When we pray we are praying for something because its what we want. Just because we want it doesn't mean thats what GOD has for us. We must learn and understand it is not our will but his.

Thats my thought for the day.