I am debating on whether to delete my blog. I mean its been almost a month since I have posted. I really thought I would be more dedicated to it than this. When I finish debating with my self I will either have a new post or this site will be gone. We will see.

I have a Dream

actually I have several. I want to always live according to how God wants me to first and foremost. I want to write books. I want to have my own greeting card line. I want my husbands dreams to come to pass. Do any of you have dreams? What are they? I would love to hear them.

I got to go see my fam in AR last weekend everyone is doing good. My neice and nephews are growing so fast. I miss getting to be around them. We went to my dads grave its so wierd thinking about death. I don't want to fear it the way I use to. Really just being selfish. Nothing in this life is more important than making sure I know where I am going to spend eternity.

I have an idea of how I want my blog to be, or should I say be about. I don't want to be some stiff always talking about serious issues. I would like to add humor to it but its kinda hard to do when I am not funny.

I would like to know peoples thoughts on drinking alcohol. I know various forms of Christianity drink. but I would like to know what you have been taught on the right/wrong issue of it. I am not talking about getting drunk but just having a drink. Email me or leave a message on the tagboard please. I would love to hear some peoples responses.

I have been up since 4 am and I haven't had a cup of coffee. They have some here at work but it didn't do what a good strong cup of coffee does. I need coffee. I guess this means I am addicted to coffee.

Well if all goes well and our car doesn't break down I am off to AR to see my mom, sis and her family and my grandma and grandpa. I want to go to my dads grave this weekend and put some flowers on it. It is hard to believe that on Sept 2 it was 9 yrs since my dad passed away. I do miss him soooo much. Its so hard when someone dies and all you have is the memories, it is a hard adjustment. Since I wasn't saved when he died I never talked to him about GOD or salvation. I have no idea if I will ever see my dad again I can only hope so.

Maybe someone can help me here. I am having a hard time watching as people won't or don't want to leave there house because they can't take their animals. Why won't they just let them take them. Then I see these reporters going up to dogs that were abandon and hungry and they leave them there like that. Where is PETA. They seem to always make a statement when they see a celebrity wearing some fur but why don't they go down and rescue some animals. I am sure there are plenty that need to be rescued. I don't know maybe they are I just haven't seen it. That would have to be the most horrible feeling having to leave an animal to die. For the most part its not the homeowners fault, but I would not want to have to be put in that position.

On a lighter note, yesterday we experienced something in Oklahoma that we were not expecting, OU lost to TCU. I am in shock myself. I sat and watched the game with my husband and a friend. There was not a single person you could blame that on. Everyone usually likes to blame things on the quarterback, but the O-Line was not good at all yesterday. TCU kept constant pressure on the Quarterback and most of the time it wasn't even because of blitzing. In my opionon there was bad play calling, bad defense, bad offense. They need to regroup and rethink a new game plan. If TCU beat them imagine what UCLA, Texas, Texas Tech, Texas A&M will do to them. Altough I am a fan, I am also a fan of OSU. I like the schools in state. I am disappointed but I am not like some of the others that are going to be calling for Stoops to be fired, Paul Thompson and Rhet Bomar (sorry don't know how to spell it) to get out and just bring in a new QB, oh now people will probably want Grady back now. Its been a good few years despite the Bowl games but they are going to have to go through a rebuilding year, maybe even 2.

Our family is praying for the people affected by the Hurricane. There are good people in America that are doing what they can.

I really don't want to post anything about my self right now. I have nothing going on. I have shelter, I am not hungry, I am healthy I pray for those that have nothing.

It is time for my 10 yr highschool reunion. Well its not really until Oct but it will soon be here. I am praying that I can restore some friendships. Not necessarily to hang out and reconnect but I left some friendships in a not so good way. This was before Christ and I have been nervous about going back. All I can do is offer my apology and pray for the best. I pray those who I might have hurt will forgive me. I really would enjoy seeing everyone. I graduated from a small school I think we only had 79 in my graduating class. High School was one of the most fun times of my life. I truly enjoyed it. It wasn't until 2 yrs after high school that I ended some friendships on a bad note. I am a completely different person now. God is good so I will trust in him no matter what. I know some know I have changed, the girl that is trying to put the reunion together asked me to be praying for her and her family she just found out her mom has a brain tumor. I will be praying that the Lords will be done in their life. I just hope I can be a light to help them see Christ.

I am suppose to be in AR right now visiting my family, however it didn't work out like that yesterday. Let me just say I have never in my life seen someone with more car trouble than my husband and I. I think this is one way the enemy tries to attack us a lot. At least I would rather it be him than us just having bad cars. My husband and I car pooled yesterday since we were leaving right after work to go to AR. Its a 2 1/2 hour trip. My husband picked me up at lunch because we had to go to this beauty supply place and get something for his hair. On the way there we were laughing because GOD just came through on something we had been praying for. We had been praying for this for about 2 months. Its so funny to sit and think about now. Anyway we get to the beauty supply place go in and get the stuff, come back out and bam our car won't start. It just makes a clicking noise. Anyone who knows my husband and I know we don't know anything about cars. We are sitting and keep turning the key to get it started. Nothing but my husband is sweeting like crazy. Its 95 degrees out there. We get out start calling people to see if we can get a ride, one of our friends is going to come and get us and take us home (which is 30 min. away) so we can get our other car. Meanwhile we are standing outside in the heat waiting on the tow truck. They said he would be there in 2o minutes. Yeah right. We waited an hour. The whole time we are outside waiting in the heat. Our friend showed up and we are all laughing and talking. We had taken all of our clothes and back out of our car and put them into our friends because we didn't know if the car would be ready today or not. So the tow truck comes and takes our car and we head to our house to get our car. Thank goodness we hadn't gotten far when we realized our house key and both sets of car keys were in the car being towed to the shop. So our friend takes my husband back to work and then takes me, I am the lucky one that gets to take all our clothes and bags to my job. Well the guy calls and says it was our battery, mind you we have jumper cables but they are in our garage at home, and we didn't ask anyone for a jump which we should have so we could have saved $40 for towing. Anywho a lady I work with took me to go get the car and on the way to get my husband it just doesn't seem like it is running right. So when I pick up my husband and we are pulling out of his job the car acts like it won't go and about dies. The shop is closed already so we decide not to go to AR. This is our one or so we thought most reliable car. We don't want to drive our other one that far, theres not tellings what will happen with it. So here I am sitting at home today. I wish I could have seen my family but maybe next weekend. God is so good, something like this would have upset me not to long ago.

I have been reading others blogs from the blog links on my page. I thought I would remember the ones I read and want to keep reading on a daily or everyother day basis. However I am having trouble find them throught the links and I didn't write them down. I will run across them again I suppose.

I read a comment on someones site the other day that made me think. Actually it made me realize I don't know the bible very well. I know there are scriptures that I need to know that will reference what I believe. One person said they thought the day we see God we can confess that Jesus is Lord and all be saved. I know a verse in Phil. does say all will confess this but I thought for 1) you had to do this before you died. 2) then why am I trying to live my life the way God says I should, my flesh wants to do wrong but if the day I see God I can just confess then why not live the way my flesh wants. Then again, for some simply stating scripture isn't enough because they don't necassarily believe that the bible is inspired and directed by God. Some people make comments and they do make me think. I just know there is sooo much that I don't know, but what I do know is I am living my life for Christ, the way the bible says that we should and I did confess Christ before death.

Once last thought. If the way that you beleive turns out to be right at the coming of the Lord, then me and you both are getting into heaven (since I believe and confess Christ now before death and you don't, then we are both living right. we don't agree on how to get there, but either way according to some may be right), but if the way that I believe (confess Christ before death and live as Christ would have us to live) turns out to be right then I have nothing to worry about. I will go either way. I hope this comes out the way I am seeing it in my head.

I wish people could post comments but since I can't get the comments bar to show up then tag me a line.

Yesterday was my sisters birthday tomorrow is my husbands. My husband and I will be traveling to AR this weekend to see my sis and her family, my mom and my grandma and grandpa. I do miss getting to see them like I use to when I lived there.

I have yet to understand why it is hard to have a girlfriend. I mean one you can tell anything to whether they will get mad at you or not. Thats how my husbands relationship is with his friends. They are there for each other spiritually. To help each other when one is not headed in the right direction, but I find it difficult for females to do. My husband and I do not have children so I don't know what having a family so to speak is like, but all of my girlfriends have kids and it seems that it is difficult to find time for us to get together with out children, but its funny how the husbands do this all the time. They get together and play video games, talk, just fellowship with each other. Us women on the other hand don't do that. I'm not good at starting conversations so that has a little to do with it. I wish it was easier for me to do. Maybe one day it will be. I hope this makes sense because I feel like I am rambling.

Anywhoo I have been enjoying reading others blogs. It is making me think about how I view some things and really examine my reasoning behind things. Its good to know there are so many out there that are living for God and searching for him. I have found him and want so badly to do as he wants me to do. I only pray that I am.

It Monday, Monday. wasn't that a line in a song? Maybe I just made that up. I am trying to figure out how to get more people to my blog. I am not sure if it is "cool" to ask someone to link me and I will link you. But I really don't want to keep posting if I am the only one reading this. If you stop by please just leave me a hi to let me know someone other than me is reading it.

I am always trying to improve my relationship with Jesus everyday. I know he has helped me soooo much. I use to be a tv junkie. I could not pry myself away from it. But now I have a select few shows I watch and they are mainly the home improvement type shows. Trust me I have come a mighty long ways thanks to God. I hope to one day post some amazing comments on my thoughts and beliefs right now GOD is working on me.

Its Saturday I am still a little sleepy. I really think I am the only one reading my blog, counter will say 996, then the next time I look at my site it says 997, then the next time I look it says 998 so that leads me to believe I am the only one reading this thing. Thats ok that may be what God is wanting. He is so awesome and I love him so much. I don't deserve him yet he loves me. I don't deserve him yet he saved me. I don't deserve him yet he provided for me. I don't deserve him yet he comforted me. He is so worthy to be praised.

I really want to post my testimony but I don't know how to do that. I am not good at the technical side of computers. If it doesn't say Post your testimony here, I am lost.

I have still been reading many blogs the past few days. It is very important to me to understand what someone believes in if they are going to be writing about God and I am going to have a link to them on my site. There are a lot out there, as I have read lately, that do not believe in salvation the same as I do. I know there are non-essentials that Christians may disagree on but as I once heard a Pastor say the non-essentials aren't important its the Essentials that are important. Example cutting your hair is a non-essential to me(some forms of religion don't believe in it). Believing Jesus is the Son of God is essential. I hope this is making sense. As my site is called LoveLikeChrist I believe it is very important to show love to all no matter what, but my love will not guarantee my salvation. What I believe in will and how I live my life according to that belief will. Everyone is entitled to their beliefs, God gave us the right to choose, but I just can't be responsible for leading someone to a site that I don't agree with on the essentials.

Today was a good day. It was still raining when I woke up this morning, 4 days of rain.

My husbands friend called tonight. He was wanting to talk to my husband but he wasn't home, so we ended up talking for a while. My husband and I first meet him while we were all in college. He is one of the nicest guys. He is wondering why he is still single. He will make some woman a very good husband. He is still waiting on God to send him the woman for him.

I have been reading a lot of blogs for the first time today. It fills my heart with joy to read all of the blogs for God. Some are a little confusing as to what they truly believe. I have had my own questions and still are trying to understand my walk fully. While I was reading God put this poem in my spirit to write.

My heart says yes
when my flesh says no
You lead me to the well
When I have no where to go

My heart crys out
and longs to be with you
even on my bad days
your love shows through

The desire in my heart
to tell the world who you are
to share your love with all
to those both near and far

I can't stop thinking about you
Oh how I know you love me
If only everyone else would accept your love
what a better world this would be

I am trying to add comments to be posted but somehow my template isn't allowing it. I don't know much about codes and stuff, maybe I will figure it out.

Its Sunday and still raining here. I didn't think August was a rainy month normally but it has been nice. Went to see Wedding Crashers last night it was a funny movie. I rented Spanglish but haven't watched it yet. I need to do that. I will watch it today.

God is good and I love him soooooo much.

What a beautiful morning! I live in Oklahoma and woke up to rain this moring. It is so calm and peaceful.

I feel the love of God so strong right now. His love for me makes me want to cry with joy. I was thinking last night and this morning, there are things in this world that I do not understand, but God knows all so I shall trust in him.

Ok I am going to try this again. The Lord has been putting it on me to start writing again. Sometimes I have things to say sometimes I don't. I am going to give it my best effort to be consistent in posting.

I had to email my husband today to let him know some things. Last night he was on the phone with a friend of ours and her sister. He was ministering to the sister. This was my email to him "I was in awe of you last night. I see why everyone always comes to you in there time of trouble. You are very honest, yet sincere and encouraging. The spirit of god is upon you heavily. Even as I write this tears of joy come to my eyes thinking about you and how God has anointed you. You have a special ministry that I am glad to be a part of. I use to be jealous that you had such knowledge and understanding of the bible, but I am learning so much from you. I am so thankful that God has put you in my life. Keep fighting because you have a ministry that the world needs to hear and see. I love you."

I know I haven't posted in a while so it will take a while for people to start reading this.