It's weird when I go to other blogs that are "Christian" blogs and they are talking about how great drinking alchohol or Harry Potter is. Both of these things are spoken against in the bible. I am confused as to how Christians think this is OK? I just pray truth be revealed.

This is a poem I wrote to hang in the house.

Bless This House

Lord Bless this house you have provided
And let your presence be known
Guide our foot steps and direct our path
So that your love will be shown

Help us remember as we look around
You are Jehovah Jirah our provider
You are Jehovah M'Kaddesh
Our redeemer and sanctifier

Touch every person in this house
So they may know who you are
Your grace, mercy and love
Will reach them from far

Let your spirit dwell in this place
let no-one leave the way they came
Touch their hearts and renew their mind
We praise you, hallowed be thy name

Hello

Sorry I haven't posted in so long. I've had test after test. Did good on 2, not so good on 1 and still don't know about the 4th. I won't find out until next Tuesday. I wish I could find out today when I go to class.

GOD is good.

I am so glad today is Friday. I did pretty good on my first test in college. After being out of college for 6 years its kinda scary. But Prayer helps you through those things.

Sometimes I wish I was a stay at home wife. I get tired of getting up and coming to work. I think its worse now that I am in school. I have to come in at 6am to make up my hours for going to school. I am not trying to complain I'm just letting out my feelings.

I just wish I could get my business off the ground so I could work for myself. I am going back to school to get my accounting degree. I don't plan on working as a CPA for anyone but myself. Dealing with other peoples money is too stressful. However I have this strong desire to teach. At this point I felt like GOD wanted me to go for accounting so when our business starts up I will know about the money side of things but lately I have this strong desire to teach. So now I am confused. I don't want to go out of the will of GOD. I don't know if its just my feelings about teaching or is GOD trying to tell me something. I will have to pray about this.

Its wierd going to school and working. So much of my time is spent studying I feel like I haven't had anytime with my husband. I don't like that. He starts school Thursday. He attends a christian college. They have a lot of rules. They require students to attend certain events. I know that will take more time away from us.

Tonight I will spend time with my husband.

I still feel this burning desire that I need to be doing something in the ministry. I still haven't heard from GOD on what that is. I will be patient. I do not want to do anything out of his will.

Whats up with blogger. I look at someone's link on my site and then hit the back button and the links I had disappeared. I have to log off and log back on to see them.

This weekend was good but went by too fast. We (my husband and me)babysat our nephew. He is 2, will be 3 in October. He is the cutest little thing.

GOD is good. I forgot to write about the second car we are getting. We have only had one car since we have been married (Jan 99). Thats a long time to have 1 car. Now that we are both in school and I am working we have to have 2 cars. GOD worked it out and we are buying my mother in laws car that she doesn't drive anymore. It needs transmisson work but thats ok. I am fixing to call the repair shop and ask if they are done. They have had it since last Wednesday.

GOD is awesome.

I keep asking about marketing but I should have said advertising. If anyone is familar with this please let me know. I am very interested in promoting my website. Thanks

Its Friday I only have one class today. I have been coming to work at 6 am to make up the hours I am missing for school. I will have to get use to this. It has been 6 years since I was in college WOW. I could have my BA and MA already. But this is the plan GOD has for my life.

I am trying not to let being to busy with school and these crazy hours working interfer with my time with GOD. I am trying to remain focused. I thank GOD for this wonderful oppurtunity.

I plan on getting some rest this weekend and do some homework. How exciting is that? Ooh I can't wait.

It's Monday. I had my first class at 12pm today another one at 4:15. I was so nervous I thought I was going to be sick. When I was in Junior college we had desks like in high school. This college is much bigger and they have lecture halls where they hold classes. In junior college classes weren't that big. There were a lot of people in my class today. I am majoring in accounting. I did not think I would have to get up infront of a class and speak ever again unless I became a teacher but I do. My first class we have to give a presentation with 4 complete strangers. I did not get the gift of gab so it's hard for me to hold a conversation unless I've known someone for a while. I'm glad we have to talk about class stuff.

It is soo hot here I think were almost to 100 degrees.

I have this burning sensation when I think about our ministry. We currently aren't ministering anywhere but I feel like GOD wants us to do something. I don't know what. I have been praying and asking him what it is we need to do. I don't want to do anything that is not in his will. I will continue to pray until I hear from him.

I am still looking for help with marketing my website if anyone knows anybody working in that area.

The past two weeks I have been in training. My boss is teaching me the stuff he does. Numbers, numbers and more numbers. Writing journal entries to reclassify, accruing payroll, inventory, work in process. I hope I can remember all of this. I took a lot of notes.

Monday I start school. I still can't believe I'm going back.

Does anyone know anything about marketing or signing up for search engines. I am really wanting to get my website out there and promote it. Please email me my tagboard is not working.

Not much else going on here. Still madly in love with my wonderful husband. I thank GOD for him.

I have 2 weeks until school starts. I am going back to get my Bachelors degree. I am 26 years old and am starting to feel intimitated that I will be in class with a bunch of people under the age of 22. I have always had a problem with low self esteem. GOD is breaking that though. I will need your prayers I always feel like the younger girls are making fun of me. I am in no way a savy dresser. If the out fit didn't come together I usually won't get it. I'm not good at picking out clothes.

My husband is on his way home. Thank GOD. I miss him so much. He is such a wonderful man of GOD. Do you ever think about the stuff GOD does for you and it makes you tingle inside. Thats how I feel when I think about my husband. GOD truly blessed me when he put us together. I'll give you a sneek peek at something I wrote for him.

What I realized when you were gone.

I LOVE YOU more than I did the day you left.
I don't want to be away form you for that long - EVER AGAIN
Your value has increased 100%
I feel your change in me
I hate sleeping in an empty bed
But most importantly GOD showed me that our love for him and each other
will only get stronger, you are a man after GODs own heart, we will always
have each other when no one else understands us, GOD will always be there
for us, he has transformed our old conformed minds and restored us back to him.

Check out my new Forsale on the side under blue rose images. I have things I will be putting on my website forsale. If anyone wants to buy anything and pay by check or money order email me.

There are so many things GOD is working on in me. I don't know if I can keep up. He is awesome. I love him so much. I can't begin to explain how good he has been to me.

I am going to my moms this weekend. I will be a long trip by myself. I will post next week.

My husband left this morning for Atlanta. Him and a friend are driving. I will miss him. I won't see him until Monday. Well my friend at work wanted to take me and another friend out to lunch for our birthdays which was really sweet. So I said I will drive. We walk out side and I look at my vehicle and it is leaning. I knew then I had a flat. I tell you my husband and I have more flats than anyone I know. There is a guy at my job that is great about helping people so he said he would change it. Well it turned out my valve stem (the thing the air goes in) was broke. He took it and had it fixed. It didn't cost anything. God is good. Tires are @ $150 to $200 for our SUV. Thats a lot of money.

Does anyone have any family that they are really close to but can't really be around them because they don't respect the GOD in you. We have family members that smoke and curse around us but I think if they were around a preacher they wouldn't do that. I can't understand why they don't have the same respect for us. Just wondering.

GOD is changing our lives so much. I really have to pay attention to what he tells me.

My husband and I went to my moms this weekend. It was fun. We didn't do much because it was soo hot. My husband is getting ready to go to Manpower (TD Jakes conference) with his friend. So I am going to my moms while he is gone. I hope this day goes by fast at work. It seems to always drag by. I really wanted to go to Juanita Bynums conference but I am doing a lot of training at my job so I couldn't make it. What a crazy week it will be.

My husband sent me roses today. That is so sweet. He is wonderful. Not just for sending me roses but just being such a GOD fearing man. GOD has truly transformed us both. If we would not have gotten saved we wouldn't be together but GOD has a purpose for our lives. I thank him for sending me my husband.

GOD is Awesome. Yesterday I was feeling a little down. I felt like my husband and I had not spent a lot of time together lately. So I'm trying to think of stuff to do when I get home because Monday nights he goes to play Basketball. When I get home he tells me hes not going because GOD told him to stay home with me. Wow. That was exactly what I wanted. I asked GOD to show him and he did. I have a lot on my mind I just need to process it before I write about it so I'll be back later.

Sorry I haven't posted. I don't know whats wrong with me lately. I have been so moody. Maybe its my new BC that I am on. Not much going on. I am going back to shcool in August to get my bachelors in Accounting. I plan on owning my own business so I want to know how to run a company. I am learning a lot with my current job. They are great. They are letting me take classes and make up my time for work.

Well Wednesday is my Birthday. I'm not telling that so I get a bunch of Happy B-Days only to share that they are so different as I get older. I remember when I was younger I mean like middle school and high school thinking I can't wait til I'm older. I wonder why we wish our life away so much. I'll only be 26 but the time has flown by. I remember high school like it was yesterday.

I am listening to TD Jakes at work right now. It is so great to be able to listen on the internet. With all of the stuff that goes on around here you need to be able to focus on GOD and listening while I work really helps.

My husband and I discussed not watching TV anymore. Well we will still watch sports and stuff like trading spaces. Things that don't have cursing or sex scenes or talking about other people. We want to tune into GOD more than tune into the TV. We want a close and personal relationship with him. One that requires more prayer and worship and time just for him. I think I will add a link on my web page so I can share some stories about the goodness of GOD. I will start working on it tonight.

I hope all is well with everyone. God Bless

Wow I didn't realize I have not posted in so long. Well last Thursday was my husbands grandmothers funeral. Everything went well. Friday we had a cook out for the 4th. There were so many people in our house I don't think I want to do that again. I sleep a long time on Saturday. I watched Jeepers Creepers what a wierd movie. Sunday we played taboo with my husbands cousin and a friend. It is a fun game. I thought I had a lot more work to catch up on but I kept busy all day yesterday and got most of it done.

My birthday is in a few weeks. I don't know if I'm happy or sad time is going by so fast. I remember being in high school like it was yesterday, its been 8 years.

I'm not pregnant. It is kinda a good thing right now in our life. I didn't find out until yesterday. I thought I would have found out Friday but wasn't able to go to walmart until Sunday. Well it looks like I'll be on the treadmill more than usual. Please send motivation my way. I really need to start eating healthy. I also get the shot for birthcontrol and they said it could make me gain weight but I don't want it all in my stomach. Why can't we tell it where to go.

I caught a fish!!! Me, my husband and my mother went fishing Saturday. I was the only one to catch anything. Really I'm not bragging. I wish we would have had a video camera though. There were bees out there. One went up my shirt! I twisted it and caught it in my shirt and my mom hit it with a rock to kill it. The when we were leaving a bumble bee starting flying right by my husband and he was the one telling me to stay still when one came around. Anyway he dropped everything in his hands which was the ice chest and other things and started running. He ran right by me so of course the bee started chasing me. I was running in circles and swinging everything in my hands at it. I was only making it mad but I wanted it away from me. Oh if only you could have seen it we were laughing the whole way home.

GOD IS GOOD

Well this is the big weekend to fing out if I'm preg. I won't be able to post until Suday. Hate to keep everyone waiting. I will be so glad to find out. One way or the other it doesn't matter. I could just be paranoid and I am gaining weight because I eat unhealthy stuff and don't exercise. Well I get on the treadmill once a week think that helps? LOL

So whats up with the blogger log in site? It always says 10 most recent posts yet mine is never on there? I'm not sure where those posts come from.

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

GOD BLESS

It's ok if Satan wants to visit my blog. Thats the people I'm trying to reach. Satan even linked my blog in one of his or her posts. Which was great now others will come to my site. I think he may have wanted others to read so they can make fun but what others mean for evil GOD turns for good. It is trully the lost we need to reach out to. If anyone ever has anything to say a question, comment what ever it is I will be happy to respond.

My husband called me earlier and said his grandmother passed away this morning. I trully hope she turned to Jesus at some point before she died. Things are crazy. No one in the family has the money to pay for the funeral. So everyone may have to chip in. Its hard when you live pay check to pay check. We usually have enough money for food and gas left over but not much after that. We may have to sacrifice a car payment or something. But what ever we have to do GOD is still Good.

There are so many things going on right now. We have a friend living with us which is better than how he was living before. I was really worried about him. He was living with a girl but they weren't married. I thought he knew it was wrong but it didn't seem like it. He was living with us before they moved in together. And he was saved so I was confused when he moved in with her. But I think he has seen what was going on and since they broke up it has been hard on him. We try to encourage him. GOD told us our house was like a halfway house if someone needed to stay they could stay with us. He never said it would be easy. It does get hard sometimes. When we barely have enough money for ourselves and we have to help others. But as I said earlier GOD is Good.

We had a cousin staying with us one time and we came home from work one day and when we walked in it smelt funny. When we walked in our kitchen there wer big brown burn spots on our vinyl floor. He was gone and left a note telling us a skillet caught on fire and he dropped on the floor. Whew. After calming down we thanked GOD no one was hurt and our house didn't burn down. A few weeks later we had taken him to a town where he was going to stay with someone else for a while. We got our phone bill and it was $1600.00. I literally thought I was having a heart attack. He had got on our internet and visited some adult sites while we were at work and they would charge them to your phone. He also had hundreds of dollars worth of collect calls. It took JESUS to get me through that one. I called the phone company and told them we did not do that. They dropped the internet charges but we had to pay the collect calls. I did forgive him because as a believer that is how we should live.

Ok so there is a project going on in one of the towns close to where I live. They are wanting to build low income apartments. I'm not rich but I don't need assistance. However some of the rich people near this are having a fit. They do not want it built near them. Why? Well altough they didn't say it you could tell what they were thinking. I don't want those thiefs, drug dealers and killers near me. What? Do you know how many thiefs and con artists probably live in your nice neighboorhood they just steal on a larger scale so they can afford a nice house. It makes me sick to think that some rich people not all think its terrible to live near a low income apartment. What would you do if you needed help with rent and couldn't afford your $200,000 house. Not all low income people are bad. Just like not all rich people are good. Some people and their pride. Does anyone understand where I'm coming from. It is discrimination. Some people fall to hardship. Some don't choose to live that life style some things happen and need help getting back on there feet. GOD has too help me because it get really frustrating.

What a boring weekend. I cleaned all day yesterday. At least my house is clean now. Today was soo long. I thought 5 would never get here.

So is anyone out there? Leave me a message on the tag board so I can read your blog if you have one.

So I have gained a few pounds and I haven't shed it yet. I am only referring to not knowing whats going on with my body. My stomach is sticking out and my clothes are fitting right. I should just break down and buy a preg test. I don't know if were ready for a kid right now. We still like being alone. But I know what ever happens its in GODs hands. I do know if I am not preg I am hitting the treadmill and watching what I eat.

I don’t know what it is about women! Men can get together and do things and have fun but women are so different. I have some friends but no one ever calls me and asks me to do things. Not that I would have the money to do them. We just don’t have extra money right now but we could rent movies or find something to do. Most of my friends have kids and for some reason the wife always gets to take them everywhere she goes and some of the kids drive me crazy. Their parents do not watch them very well. I’m telling you if my husband and I have a kid he will be taking the kid with him so I can have some time to do what I want. What am I talking about we don’t even now if we want kids.

If my husband goes to them movies tonight I will probably sit at home and watch While You Were Out by myself. He’s going to see the Hulk and I don’t want to go.

I think I have set a record for myself the most blogs in one day!

I was just thinking how crazy it is that I have all of this energy at work but when I get home all I want to do it sit on the couch and flip through the channels because there is nothing on. I do struggle with this. I could look up blogs and read them at home but I’m so lazy I don’t do it.

What’s wrong with me.

I guess there no women that know about the problem I asked about. I don’t even know if anyone is reading except Megan.

I just want to let everyone know where I stand on heaven and hell. Hell is a place for the sinners and I do believe there are people that will not make it into heaven . Unless you confess Jesus is the son of GOD and repent for your sins I don’t think you will make it to heaven. That includes people of other religions that do not confess Jesus as the son of GOD. They consider him a “regular” man. I am a regular person JESUS is not. Some people think if you are a good person and do good things GOD wouldn’t not let you in just because you don’t believe JESUS is the son of GOD. I could go on for days about this.

I love everyone, I may not believe in what some people think or do but I love everyone like Jesus our father loves everyone.

Ok so I don't feel so bad now. I have been reading other blogs and I'm not the only one that does not post everyday. Whew I feel better.

I am at work now. I pray that God blesses our business so that I do not have to work for anyone but him. I like my job I just don’t want to get up and come to it everyday. I know GOD will do it. I have so many ideas in my head I just need the resources to get them done.

I am going back to school this fall. I want to get my accounting degree, I only have an associates. I am going to work full time and go to school full-time. I pray the LORD gives me strength and the smarts to do it all.

GOD is good. Has anyone seen Bruce Almighty. I was skeptical about going to see this but my husband and I went anyway. I really didn’t like it. The plot was realistic as far as people blaming GOD for things going wrong in there life. But I just didn’t think it was funny that GOD went on vacation and let someone run the world for him. I mean when Jim Carrey blew up the woman’s dress what was that about. It was not humorous to me.

The Hulk comes out today. I think my husband may be going to see it. I can’t get in the that. I use to like the show but it was an actual person back then now its computerized. Even though its not realistic they could at least make it look that way.

I’m ready for Bad Boys 2 to come out.

I dropped off our loan papers today. Thank you Jesus for our refinancing!!!!!!!!

My husband called and said his grandma may have died. His Aunt and cousins were going to the hospital to see. I think the hospital called someone and told them she was code blue. They are suppose to call him when they find out something.

We were talking about death and the sadness it brings on people. My main concern about death is did they get it right with GOD before they died. Then I started thinking we can hope that someone does get it right before they die however they did not die prematurely. GOD new when they would die and if they would make it in to heaven. We sometimes don’t know these things but he knows all. For some it is still emotionally because they will miss the person that has passed. Some will feel guilty because the enemy wants us to think of what we did or didn’t do before that person died. I know because that’s what happened to me when my father died. I felt guilty about the amount of time I spent with him or didn’t spend with him. I do still cry about it but GOD gives me the strength to keep going and get those thoughts out of my mind.

I’m not sure if anyone is reading or not but any comments would be great.

It's Friday! I am so ready to leave work. We are going to see my family in Arkansas this weekend. And no we are not inbreed. Like so many people say about Arkansas people.

Can anybody tell me, NOT that I am but can your stomach get bigger without you gaining weight when you first get pregnant? All of my clothes are fitting tight in my stomach area but when I get on the scale I don't weigh more. Its weird. I am on bc but I've heard stories of people still getting pregnant. I would love to know if anyone has experienced this.

Well my husband and I are waiting to hear back from a guy about refinancing our house. He is going to his last resort today. It would be such a blessing if we could refinance and get some money out of our house. If we could get enough out to pay off our car that would be great. We need a financial blessing. We filled bankruptcy in Aug of 2002. After my husband and I didn’t work for 9 months our credit card bills got behind but GOD is good we kept up our house and our car. See he took care of the things he told us to get and the things we did our selves (running up $21,000) in credit card debt was not his to take care of. But we felt it was the right thing to do to file bankruptcy on our credit cards. Now it is just a little hard to do anything with bankruptcy. They said it would take 2 years before we could really do anything. But I know GOD can do something a lot sooner than 2 years. Please keep us in your prayers.

We went fishing this weekend. I really think there are not any fish in the Lakes around here. We didn’t even get a bite. I don’t know what we would do if we caught a fish neither one of us know how to clean them.

My husband and I went fishing this weekend. or should I say we feed the fish. We didn't catch a thing but our bait was always gone from our hook. It was still fun.

I'm sitting at work right now. Oh my website is done!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea! I have all of my greeting cards on there. I feel like it took forever. Now I can start on my book again. Pray that I work on it everyday. I sometimes get lazy and don't do what I need to. It is a weakness.

My husband and I are leaving after I get off work to go see my mom, sister and her family. Hopefully I will get off of work early. We are surprising her.

Well as everyone is probably aware we go through struggles in our life. One of my struggles is confrontation. I hate it. I can write all day but put me in front of someone and I clam up.

One issue I need to discuss with my mother but I tend to clam up is about my sisters children. She just isn’t good with kids as my sister and I learned when we were young. To me kids will do things kids do. They sure won’t learn anything if you yell at them all the time. My mom does that. She doesn’t like them to touch her stuff; she hates the way they eat. My sister tries to discipline them and if they don’t correct it the first time then my mom takes over. Its really sad but my nephew doesn’t even want to be around his grandmother. But I can’t talk to my mom about it. I cringe thinking about telling my mom. I have forgiven my mom for a lot of stuff from the past but my sister can’t. I by no means am perfect but forgiveness is very important to me. And if I tell my mom how I feel I think that would make her relationship with my sister and her kids better however I think my mom would be too hard on herself. She is the type to say to herself “I’m so stupid, I never do anything right.” I don’t want her to feel that way and that is another thing she shouldn’t do. I had to break that off of my self. I was beginning to get like that.

Your prayer is much needed.