Not Easy

A couple of posts ago I mentioned that I had disobeyed GOD and had to suffer the consequences. It has been almost 3 months and it is still very hard to talk about. I know some that read this may judge me and think of me as a horrible person. Anyway I will just explain. Last June I made a decision to get Sixer and I felt in my spirit that it wasn't the right time for me to do that but I did it anyway. I did it out of selfishness. I always had a dog growing up and I really wanted a pug. Like I said I felt GOD telling me not to get him and I did it anyway. It has always been hard on me to leave him for hours while I went to work. I live to far away to go home at lunch and let him out so he stayed in his crate all day. That bothered me. Then we started a janitorial business and we clean after we got off our day job. Long story short we were leaving Sixer for over 14 hours a day with no bathroom breaks. We tried leaving him in the laundry room. We came home and he had scratched 2 holes in the walls. This really bothered me. Not because he put the holes in the wall but I felt like he was being neglected. I love Sixer with all of my heart but I felt like I could not provide the proper care for him. After much prayer I did what GOD told me to do. I found Sixer a new home. He now stays with a retired grandmother that is home all day and babysits her grandson. He loves children and now he gets to roam around all day and play. I will probably never see him again and that breaks my heart. But I did make sure he has a good safe home with lots of time to roam and play. Since I disobeyed GOD and got him I also had to give him up. Maybe one day I will be home more where I can give the proper care and attention that is needed.

Here are pictures from my last day with Sixer. One of the saddest days of my life.